My [Former] Life as a Photographer

I probably get close to five calls per week from people asking about photography. And every time I have to remind them that I don't shoot anymore, I feel a little bit of guilt. I stopped shooting last spring and officially closed my business on it's 4th birthday in September. Yet, there are still moments that I feel like I did the wrong thing. 

I'm sure you're asking "But why did you stop shooting?" and "Why did you close your business?"

The simple answer: I didn't enjoy it anymore. 

My brother and sis-in-law on baby #2. New baby coming in 30 days! 

The not-so-simple answer below: 

I've wanted to be a photographer for as long as I can remember. In the 5th grade I was given the school's disposable camera and told to take photos of my classmates for the school newsletter of which I was also the "editor". I took that job seriously. By the end of the week I still had four pictures left on the roll and had decided to leave those for individual shots of myself and the other "writers". What kind of kid was I? Neurotic. 

Fast forward to high school and once again I was asked to become one of the photographers for my school. This time, it was for the yearbook of which I was Co-Editor. Same as before I took that job way too seriously; I even coaxed my parents into buying me a Canon SLR for my 16th birthday. I was hooked, but never considered it more than a hobby.

It wasn't until I'd graduated from Howard with a degree in broadcast journalism that I realized I had a real passion for both photography and film — one of the two things I should have majored in. 

So, with a degree in my hand and the looming start of law school before me, I made the choice to do the thing I loved. I canceled my law school plans, moved back to the "great" state of Alabama and used the money from a summer job to buy everything I needed to start a photography business. My parents, ever supportive, encouraged me every step of the way. 

I was happy. And within one month of starting my business I had booked two weddings. 

One of my all time favorite couples and friends.

Now, I'm sure you're thinking this is no indication of how things ended, but I need you to know how much I loved photography. 

Fast forward three years and there I was sitting at my computer working on budgets and returning emails thinking I hate this. People were booking me, but canceling the same day even though they knew they wouldn't get their deposit back. Others were showing up at their shoots, seeing their preview sites and raving about how much they loved the photos, but never purchasing a single one. Or worse, taking screenshots and posting those. Still, the best group were those who just wanted me to post their wedding photos on Facebook (and tag them, of course) in hopes that it would lessen the cost. 

It just didn't make sense. People said they loved my images, but told me that I charged too much? Don't you pay for things that you love?  I wouldn't budge on my prices. Sue Bryce, Sarah Petty and Amanda Holloway had all told me in one way or another that I shouldn't charge less than I deserve. Plus, they all lived in small towns, too. What was wrong with me?

I wanted to quit right then, but I read a few Sarah Petty blogs and watched a few Sue Bryce classes on Creative Live and decided to forge on. 

Then the BIG ONE happened; the moment that I knew this was becoming too much. Another local photographer started messaging people on Facebook who would comment on my photos asking about pricing, sessions, etc. and telling them pretty bad lies about myself and my business. I cancelled on people, didn't show up for sessions and never gave people back their money. None of these things ever  happened, but when you live in Small Town, USA reputation trumps facts any day. 

I had no clue this was happening, but I did notice that people who had reached out said nothing when I sent them my beautifully designed welcome guide and pricing menu. It wasn't until a friend of mine and a local business owner both had an encounter with one of these couples that I found out. I was exhausted and tired of it all. 

Gorgeous little model and actress who is headlining a bullying campaign now!

I decided to do one more round of senior session as a last effort to redeem my business. I even lowered my prices for the first time ever. This ended in a mom dropping her daughter off at the location and never returning because she didn't have the money to pay me the remainder of her balance, which usually meant that I wouldn't shoot. Yet, how do you look at a kid whose parent just drove off and tell them we're going to just stand here until she returns with my money? I shot that session. It took six months and another mutual friend intervening for me to even hear from this lady again. I really just wanted her daughter to have those pictures. I had already written it off at this point, so I declined her offer to pay. My business was closed. 

Local MUA and one of my cousins who is doing AMAZING things. 

Today: 

I miss shooting. I miss branding. I miss watching Creative Live like a crazy lady so that I can get better at my craft. But I think I made the right decision. And all's not lost. I still get to shoot thanks to my brother and sister-in-laws ever growing family and my little church sisters forcing me to shoot their weddings this year. So, for now, that will have to do.

And honestly, I think it all worked out for the best. I have great new projects that I'm working on and I'm really very grateful for all of my former clients. Good, not so good and everything in-between.

Have you ever had to quit something you loved a lot? Was it worth it? Do you regret it?

Always in love, 

Whit

Whit & Life Happens

I'm sure you've all been wondering where I've been. *Note that was sarcasm. But just in case a few people read this, I figured I should explain myself.

I like lists, so here's my "Why I Haven't Blogged in Months" List: 

1. Someone accused me of stealing whit&love from them although I have the domain and all social handles. Thus I had to go through a lot to make sure no one would try this again. Unfortunately, it meant that I needed to take a break until it was all resolved. 

2. I'm a horrible human and have not been taking great care of myself and found myself pretty sick the last few weeks. Quick visit to the doctor revealed that my iron was extremely low. A few days of supplements and I feel better than I have in a very long time. Go to the doctor, folks. It works! 

3. I just haven't felt like blogging. With all that's going on in the world, I felt like I should be using my powers to aid in those issues instead of writing about my favorite mascara (not to diss those who blog about those things). I'm an activist at heart and sometimes I have to make the causes I believe in a priority. Recently, that's been my focus and I wasn't sure if my blog was he place to share that side of me (yet). But I will. 

So am I ready to come back to blogging full throttle? Nah. But I am back.

always in love,

Whitney